Chocolate

it is officially the 6th day of winter break. It doesn't feel like it tho. I don't really do anything, after i spent my xmas moolah, i have nothing to do. I need a job, pronto. Well i rented about 5 movies with Aubrey uhh about 2 days ago, and watched 3 of them, including camp rock. we rented Sex in the City, it was pretty funny b/c her pops came in during a very intimate sex scene ROFL. We were pretty smooth about it tho hehe. so I'd be lying if i said I've started my diet already, I've planned to start on new years. idk how many pounds I've put on but it must be somewhere around 3, I've eaten sooo much chocolate, oh lord. My mum's dude thing got hella chocolate for xmas and I've been diving into every box i see xD. frick. Oh well. It's break hehe. Some family came over that i missed oh so much at the lamest xmas party ever last night. we pigged out on: chocolate tamales (:, gummy worms, and chips hehe; while watching Twilight for the 4th time :].

Plans so far:
-shelly belly's bday @downtown ice&pizza my heart; sat 27
-go to SF with fatso Aubrey; sometime next week
-Do photo1 projecto at aa's or aubrey's pad; aSAP
-???

Btw, i should probably get into the xmas spirit more then i have, sooooo merry xmas amigas, or to whoever else reads my boring blog :D

PS, I'm glad our drama is cleared up Lisa Mai♥

rain

Today I woke up pretty early just b/c I had plans to go out with Lisa to see Twilight again. I was myspace whoring all morning. I switched my profile to the 2.0 thinger so yeah, that was a pretty big deal for me hehe :). Riva texted me this morning so we also catched up, we used to talk all the time haha. Once i showered and was ready i left to meet Lisa at church. She's the first Mormon i've met, hehe. So church was really boring, we were literally watching the clock change haha. But it was pretty chill at the same time. The missionary is pretty funny xD. So apperently viet people repeat things over and over again so he had to repeat the things over in the translator it was pretty funny xD. I hadn't been to church with Lisa since like..Aubrey's bday hahaha, we needed to catch up. This drama just needs to go away, i want it to be like before all this happened, so yeah we still need to work things out but today was super fun. Anyways so after we got a ride to Eastridge to go see the movie. It was packedddd, chaos i swear. Hahaha, last minute Chirtsmas shopping. This year Christmas is pretty lame for me, I just got handed money ): lame, no presents to rip open. Oh well, next year i guess. So the movie was as awesome as the first time i watched it, i wanna see it again, hahaha, i've seen it 3 times now :D. After the movie Lisa and I walked around, and i got this shirt i really wanted form Zumiez so yeah it was fun till we left, it was cold and freezing and raining!! And the bus took FOREVERRR! Fuck I want a car so bad >:[. When we got off the bus we were waiting for the light rail trying to shake the cold off, so we sat down for awhile to keep warm and we both lifted our heads at the same time, and hella bumped our heads on each other HAHAHAHHA. It was funny xD. When we got off we walked to ampm and were gonna get hot chocolate but we got soda with crushed ice :). it was yummyy, with chips hehe. I finally got to see Lisa's room! It's soooo cute :D, she painted her room the color i wanted mine haha. I wish i could paint my room, lame. Today was fun, I hadn't had fun with Lisa for a while haha =). adios.

ROFL ROFL

At Alissa's place! Doesn't she look like a turtle?!!?! Alissa: "woah you look really big in that picture b/c of your sweater!!" HAHAHAHAHAAH! There were plenty of other embarrassing pics of me and Alissa too! But the fuckers have them ♥ HAHAHA ♥

I haven't done this in a while..

Hello world wide web! I've been oh sooooo busy I don't have time for anything anymore! I hate this year, everything got so complicated, i hate it..=/. Whatever. Anyways so Friday was REALLY FUN :D. Aubrey and I went to the movies to see Twilight again :DDD ♥ Gosh I love that movie, sooo buying it when it comes out, ahhhh Robert ♥ :D, Alissa was supposed to come but she had family things to do so w/e. I lost my lollipop on the way to the movie which was lame b/c i hekka wanted to eat it LOL, oh well. When we got to In&out there was like hella different cliques, the Asians, the whites, and the weird hypes haha. We were kinda in the middle of, so they just walked by us like we weren't there...we felt invisible O.O. haha. So after we just walked around thee plaza, everything was closed but it was still fun, hah. then we stopped by to Jamba, and idk what went through our heads at that point but we ended up buying Wheat grass shots...shit that stuff was DISGUSTING!!! UGH, never trying that again ROFL. So we just waited for my mum who took forever. Yeahhhh, that was a fun day :D.

So Yesterday i went to Alissa's to do our History and English project. Yeah we didn't get anything done ROFL. Yesterday was crazyyy, the weirdest things happened. So yeah we just chilled, procrastinating, eating haha. And messing around. It was actually really fun. &hearts. HAHAHA. So we just gossiped and added someone..i really shouldn't of added...but w/e xD ROFL. The time went by sooo quick, we couldn't believe it was 10:30 already so i was supposed to get picked up and my mum was out with her 'thing' and she couldn't pick me up and my Father couldn't either....so I got to sleepover :DD but not at Alissa's at Aubrey's ROFL, really weird....like she was supposed to work today and she didn't imagine is she didn't come at all today O.O FUCK i'd be screwed hahaha. So when we got to her place we just chilled, went online, and ate HAHAHA. It was fun (: And we didn't sleep till what 5...Yeah I'm really tired right now O.O.

So much fun ♥ loves it.

I wanna learn how to fly

Today was a pretty shitty day if i do say so myself. I woke up really late like around..12. Usually it doesn't bug me that i wake up that late but today i felt so blehh. I've been feeling really down and depressed about everything. It's like nothing I do is right. With school and friends. Blehh. Yesterday i got a 0/200 on my chem 'quiz'. I already have a C in that class. All my grades are slipping and i think it's b/c of everything that is going on around me. Math..wow, I hate hate hate hate that class. I feel so stupid and dumb in that class it's like i don't wanna bother with it anymore. I just want to give up. And when i do ask for help i feel like thanks to me they might be falling behind as well. and when people bring up college it just makes it worse. Idk what I'm gonna do with my life, I'm soo scared to graduate, especially with these grades =/. I need to get my shit together as someone told me Friday. It's just harder then it seems. The whole friend situation is just stupid. I can't believe I'm loosing someone that i care for soo much. I used to think we were BFF. And that it would stay like that for a very long time. I guess not. It's gotten so out of hand that I don't even know what I'm gonna do with that. Sometimes i just don't want to care, but it's sooo hard not to =/. Jealousy. wow, what that can do to ruin a friendship. When i see that certain friend treating someone that they barely even talk to way better then she's treating me it just hurts. I don't know what makes them so special. She looks at them like their these great friends that are always there for her, like no doubt. I don't really know if I could say they are. Jealousy also came in a different way. This year I met one of my best friends and we really hit it off. She's an awesome person to talk to and to hang out with. But just because we got close doesn't mean we were ever planning to leave you out of anything. I'm sorry if you feel that way. I feel it is very stupid to think that because we both care about you soooooo much, like you don't even know, and we both don't want to loose you over this stupid situation. I seriously hope we can get over this, b/c right now idk if we can. Earlier today you told me i could tell you anything and talk to you about why I've been feeling so down lately..I couldn't tell you the truth. I've been so down in the dumps b/c of this drama going on between us. I'm soooo tired of getting shot down that i seriously feel like i shouldn't try unless you're trying too. Help me figure out what the next step is. =/. I wish i could just get out of here and no one would notice i was gone. I don't feel like doing anything and I've been so mean to some people just b/c I'm always in a bad mood . I just wanna get over this and move on. I hate feeling like this, but idk what to do anymore. Why can't I do anything right? This was a waste of time..

Melancholy nights.

Hi. I haven't blogged since uhh Friday..idk. So yeah. Today was an ehh day. Id rather not say..So I dyed my hair Sunday night uhh Black Cherry, I really like the color but idk if it looks nice on me O.O well im just gonna have to stick w/ it for a while I guess. My hair still smells like the hair dye and it kinda gets me dizzy, haha. everytime I shower the water is like purple xD, haha I hope it doesn't fade too fast. This is this first time I have blogged on my phone haha it feels funny. Lately I've had trouble sleeping..late night thinking is a killer. I should be sleeping right now but idk..haha. Tomorrow were going out to teach, woohoo, fun..this year teaching is actually more boring only b/c mine and Alissa's teacher only has us 'observe' lame. Welllll, im getting pretty tired im going to go to bed, goodbye :D.