I wanna learn how to fly

Today was a pretty shitty day if i do say so myself. I woke up really late like around..12. Usually it doesn't bug me that i wake up that late but today i felt so blehh. I've been feeling really down and depressed about everything. It's like nothing I do is right. With school and friends. Blehh. Yesterday i got a 0/200 on my chem 'quiz'. I already have a C in that class. All my grades are slipping and i think it's b/c of everything that is going on around me. Math..wow, I hate hate hate hate that class. I feel so stupid and dumb in that class it's like i don't wanna bother with it anymore. I just want to give up. And when i do ask for help i feel like thanks to me they might be falling behind as well. and when people bring up college it just makes it worse. Idk what I'm gonna do with my life, I'm soo scared to graduate, especially with these grades =/. I need to get my shit together as someone told me Friday. It's just harder then it seems. The whole friend situation is just stupid. I can't believe I'm loosing someone that i care for soo much. I used to think we were BFF. And that it would stay like that for a very long time. I guess not. It's gotten so out of hand that I don't even know what I'm gonna do with that. Sometimes i just don't want to care, but it's sooo hard not to =/. Jealousy. wow, what that can do to ruin a friendship. When i see that certain friend treating someone that they barely even talk to way better then she's treating me it just hurts. I don't know what makes them so special. She looks at them like their these great friends that are always there for her, like no doubt. I don't really know if I could say they are. Jealousy also came in a different way. This year I met one of my best friends and we really hit it off. She's an awesome person to talk to and to hang out with. But just because we got close doesn't mean we were ever planning to leave you out of anything. I'm sorry if you feel that way. I feel it is very stupid to think that because we both care about you soooooo much, like you don't even know, and we both don't want to loose you over this stupid situation. I seriously hope we can get over this, b/c right now idk if we can. Earlier today you told me i could tell you anything and talk to you about why I've been feeling so down lately..I couldn't tell you the truth. I've been so down in the dumps b/c of this drama going on between us. I'm soooo tired of getting shot down that i seriously feel like i shouldn't try unless you're trying too. Help me figure out what the next step is. =/. I wish i could just get out of here and no one would notice i was gone. I don't feel like doing anything and I've been so mean to some people just b/c I'm always in a bad mood . I just wanna get over this and move on. I hate feeling like this, but idk what to do anymore. Why can't I do anything right? This was a waste of time..